It wasn't the first day I'd woken up worried. My husband had been unemployed for, well, ages, and my job was only part time. I was worried.
This particular day, I remember getting ready to do some errands. But I was so concerned about our finances that I was almost in tears. I was so desperate that all I could do was plead to God to help me. I didn't expect pennies from heaven. Just some comfort!
Right then, I got this vision. I suddenly perceived that God gives good to each of His children – that's everyone – directly.
Directly from Him to my husband. Directly from Him to our daughter. Directly from Him to me. (And directly from Him to you.) Not through anyone else.
My well-being wasn't dependent upon my husband finding work. Our daughter's ability to participate in activities and to have clothes that fit wasn't dependent upon our income. God supplies each of His children directly from His infinite love and largess. God is our attentive Father-Mother, our Creator, our source.
Because God is infinite, He must be right here. There is nothing between Him and me, or Him and you. This connection is immediate, a union (not us here and Him up in the sky somewhere).
This relationship is a completely spiritual one. It might look as if it's God, Spirit, bestowing material gifts (such as a job or money) on mortals, but the Giver and the giving is all spiritual.
Mary Baker Eddy, who founded Christian Science and whose writings taught me about this, explained: "God gives you His spiritual ideas, and in turn, they give you daily supplies. Never ask for to-morrow: it is enough that divine Love is an ever-present help; and if you wait, never doubting, you will have all you need every moment. What a glorious inheritance is given to us through the understanding of omnipresent Love!" ("Miscellaneous Writings 1883-1896," p. 307).
The insight I had that day was a bit of "the understanding of omnipresent Love," and it came as a glorious gift. What a relief! I was grinning! Feeling freed, delighted, and so very grateful to God, I went off to do my errands.
When I got home, there was a little note from my husband on the counter: "I got a job."
Hours later when he finally returned (it was a long day of wondering and chuckling at his wry note), my husband said that a friend had called and hired him to help build a sugarhouse – a cabin for making maple syrup. That job led to others and became steady employment. Our financial situation improved, providing even more evidence of God's care.
Over the years since, I've never let myself forget that we each get what we need straight from our heavenly Father-Mother, God. Whew! What a gift!
The Lord shall guide thee
continually, and satisfy
thy soul in drought,
and make fat thy bones:
and thou shalt be like
a watered garden,
and like a spring of water,
whose waters fail not.
Adapted from spirituality.com.