Confiding in God
"I've got to talk to someone. But who could possibly understand what I'm going through? I feel so alone." Have you ever had similar thoughts? Whom canm we turn to when the going gets rough? Perhaps a friend or family member -- but he or she, though well-meaning, may not discern our real need. There's a higher, unfailing source we can rely on to bring us not only comfort but satisfying answers to our problems.
I had proof of this about a year ago. I was struggling in a vacuum of depression, unable to shake myself free of the weight of self-pity and loneliness. I thought no one understood me, and I yearned to talk to someone about me, and I yearned to talk to someone about my feelings. I felt very much alone.
It had always seemed natural to me to turn to our one divine Parent in times of trial. Since the days when I was a student in a Christian Science Sunday School I had believed that no problem is too big or too small for God to handle.
I knew that just telling God about this situation wouldn't help much. After all, God is infinite Mind, so He already knew all there really was to know about me, and knew it to be good and complete, as He created me. In the Christian Science textbook Mary Baker Eddy, the Discover and Founder of Christian Science, writes: "The 'divine ear' is not an auditory nerve. It is the all-hearing and all-knowing Mind, to whom each need of man is always known and by whom it will be supplied." n1
n1 Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures,m p. 7.
Although I did turn to God for help, I found I was so absorbed in self-pity and gloom that I wasn't receptive to His answer. One day, in desperation, I humbly confided in God with words something like this: "I don't know where to turn, God. But You are divine intelligence, so You know all there is to know. Please help me.
An indescribable peace came over me. For the first time in weeks I felt comforted, satisfied. The cloud of depression lifted. I was reminded of the Bible verse, "And it shall come to pass,that before they call, I will answer; and while they are yet speaking, I will hear." n2
n2 Isaiah 65:24.
If at times we're tempted to feel deserted and alone with insurmountable problems, just think of how Christ Jesus must have felt at Gethsemane. He found his disciples asleep when he had asked them to watch and pray with him just before his betrayal. Jesus was obviously disappointed with his friends, who had let him down in this supreme hour of trial.But he knew that human help was inadequate. Referring to Jesus at Gethsemane, Mrs. Eddy writes: "The pangs of neglect and the staves of bigoted ignorance smote him sorely. His students slept. He said unto them: 'Could ye not watch with me one hour? Could they not watch with him who, waiting and struggling in voiceless agony, held uncomplanning guard over a world? There was no response to that human yearning, and so Jesus turned forever away from earth to heaven, from sense to soul." n3
n3 Science and Health, p. 48.
Whatever the problems we face, we can look to God for help. It's natural to rely on our heavenly source for the enlightenment that will lead us out of the mental darkness that underlies all troubles. god doesn't condemn us for our failings or be little us. He beholds us as his whole and satisfied spiritual offspring, and as we trust His impartial, unfailing law of good humbly yielding to His will, we'll fing just the answer we need.
As God's children, we are worthy of His tender care. He is worthy of our trust. Confide in Him. DAILY BIBLE VERSE The Lord is good, a strong hold in the day of trouble; and he knoweth them that trust in him. Nahum 1:7