A soldier's doodling bridges the distance for a mom's heart

The drawing looks like him, in a cartoonish kind of way, though the face is longer. The jaw line, more defined. The eyes, a whole lot rounder than I remember. But the peace sign in one hand and the 12-gauge in the other captures his complex character perfectly.

I'm studying the small self-portrait my son, Roman Diaz, a soldier with the 101st Airborne in Iraq, sketched in the letter to his dad and me that arrived recently. He mentions that his camera broke, and writes, "In the absence of photos, I've included this drawing of myself." He goes on to bring to our attention the, as he calls it, "ridiculous" Zorro-like mustache he's added - just barely - in real life and here in the drawing. Says it's earned him the nickname, "Dirty D." In those lines, I hear his laugh, and feel almost giddy myself with relief.

It's the first letter we've received from Roman since he began his second deployment in Iraq almost two months ago. The first few weeks he was back there, we were able to chat with him now and then on the Internet. But we hadn't heard a word for nearly a month - nothing, not an e-mail, not a call.

"No news is good news," good friends would say.

But his silence grew louder every day - mornings especially. That's when I read the paper with my Cheerios and coffee and routinely turn to the section titled, "Army Deaths," a matter-of-fact listing of who and where. Why do I do this? In a word, hope. Hope that in the not-too-distant future there will be no more names to report, nothing to read under a heading like that. I look for that feature each morning, hoping never to find it again.

But to date, there seems little hope of that. In fact, on a recent Wednesday that listing was the reason my workday got off to a late start. After seeing four names followed by the letters and numbers I recognized as part of my son's current address - 502nd Infantry Regiment, 2nd Brigade Combat Team, 101st Airborne Division - I stared for too long out the breakfast nook window. I sat there wondering if Roman knew, maybe even had nicknames for, Sgt. 1st Class Jonathan Tesser, Spc. William J. Byler, Pvt. Adam R. Johnson, Pfc. David J. Martin. Wondered if he had been on or near that road south of Baghdad when, as the paper said, "an explosive detonated near their vehicle."

It wasn't out of the question. The last time we'd talked online he'd mentioned that he'd been serving as a gunner, a guard, for a convoy. An interim mission he'd volunteered for, he said, "Because the places they stop along the way - like this one - have Internet! So I can check my e-mail." Not the most comforting words in the world, but not surprising either. A techie at heart, Roman has always managed to find his way to a computer. Sometimes it's simply been a matter of walking over to the next tent. So when his messages stopped, my concerns grew.

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